is this thing on?

Hi. God has been stirring things up and I feel the need to write. Many, many moons ago I bought the book Anything  by Jennie Allen . I read the prologue where the author warned me that this book would change my life by guiding me through telling God I'm willing to give him anything. I've been around long enough to know to be careful what you wish for and I was terrified by that warning. Like a mature adult, I threw the book off the couch like a hot potato and said, "Uh-uh. Nope. I can't handle this right now." For almost six months, it has stayed by the couch, staring at me, taunting me. Finally, this month I decided I was ready. I felt like Kevin McAllister in Home Alone . I wanted to go outside and yell, "I'm not afraid anymore! I said! I'm not afraid anymore! DO YOU HEAR ME?! I'M NOT AFRAID ANYMORE!" And with that, I began to read...and it has felt like a marathon to get through each & every chapter. I'm exhausted, but invigo

2015 is over? I kind of feel like my brain is still processing October. I jumped on the bandwagon with the #2015bestnine Instagram trend on New Year's Eve and was reminded that 2015 was a pretty epic year, at least from my perspective. I feel like I should give myself a pat on the back for being fairly awesome at my life for a year. Perhaps that's why I've consistently felt mentally behind whatever the present moment is. Pushing oneself to do a lot of awesome things can really screw with your sense of time; especially if you are someone like me, who tends to rely a lot on 'me' time (Netflix) and in general, not being busy. In the grand scheme, I suppose it doesn't really matter that one year has ended and another has begun, but the trusty calendar year does help compartmentalize your days and makes for a good time to reflect and ponder. 2015 Proud Moments: When we started 2015, I had a to-do list that felt completely and utterly impossible for me to comple