April 29-May 6, 2011
Okay, I've officially hit my first slump in my resolution to post a picture every day. I'm actually quite surprised I made it as long as 4 months. I had some pictures but then the camera went missing and I sort of just lost my gumption.
We have started a weight loss competition at work and I (somewhat reluctantly) signed up. I would love to lose weight, I just really struggle with being held accountable to it. We had the kick-off today and it got me thinking about myself and my ability to commit to things and I ended up a little depressed. I was hard-pressed to think of any occasion in my life where I thought, "I'm going to start doing this regularly" and then actually stuck to it. The only things I can think of are showering and brushing my teeth. Pretty sad. Anything else I do regularly only seems to work out because it either doesn't feel like choice or I feel obligated. It's easy for me to commit to Brian so it doesn't pose a problem. I fully commit to my job because I feel obligated to work. I finished college because it never felt like a choice to me.
So, that has got me thinking...am I really that lacking in passion? That's a scary thought because I can't even begin to fathom how to go about changing that. Don't get me wrong, I get excited about the thought of doing something different, or changing my life for the better...for a while...and then I move on to something else when that becomes a chore, or inconvenient.
In conclusion, I am a very lazy person & I feel sufficiently convicted at the moment.
2 Thessalonians 3:11
We hear that some among you are idle. They are not busy; they are busybodies.
It appears I'm using my cats as role models for my life.
We have started a weight loss competition at work and I (somewhat reluctantly) signed up. I would love to lose weight, I just really struggle with being held accountable to it. We had the kick-off today and it got me thinking about myself and my ability to commit to things and I ended up a little depressed. I was hard-pressed to think of any occasion in my life where I thought, "I'm going to start doing this regularly" and then actually stuck to it. The only things I can think of are showering and brushing my teeth. Pretty sad. Anything else I do regularly only seems to work out because it either doesn't feel like choice or I feel obligated. It's easy for me to commit to Brian so it doesn't pose a problem. I fully commit to my job because I feel obligated to work. I finished college because it never felt like a choice to me.
So, that has got me thinking...am I really that lacking in passion? That's a scary thought because I can't even begin to fathom how to go about changing that. Don't get me wrong, I get excited about the thought of doing something different, or changing my life for the better...for a while...and then I move on to something else when that becomes a chore, or inconvenient.
In conclusion, I am a very lazy person & I feel sufficiently convicted at the moment.
2 Thessalonians 3:11
We hear that some among you are idle. They are not busy; they are busybodies.
It appears I'm using my cats as role models for my life.
Jaime, I think you're a wonderful, passionate person who cares very much about her family and friends. We all get stuck in slumps at one time or another. I think it just means it's time for a change to get yourself jump-started. Love you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Elissa, that means a lot. Love you!
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